Guilt

I have a problem. I’m a deviant. A pervert. Way beyond anything that would simply be considered a freak of nature. Why? Because I enjoy sex and I have a significant appetite for it.

One of my exes gave me a self help book on sexual addiction on her way out the door.

My own dear sister regularly tells me that I think with my dick.

My most recent long term romantic partner often joked about her pussy being the only thing about her that I was interested in. Mostly after we went from coitus 5-8 times per week to only 2-3 times per month, and I had expressed my disappointment in the new frequency. But everyone knows that there’s some truth in every joke.

Even I can tell that I’m a very different (and much better) person when I’m regularly drained than I am when I’m suffering a drought.

Look at the shit that I do in an effort to attract and keep a woman. The time and money that I invest. The stress, drama, and sometimes even mild abuse that I willingly endure. All in search of the Holy Grail:  A woman’s attention, love, and the ultimate physical expression thereof.

I’ve been doing some soul searching. Maybe all I do care about is getting some. But I can’t control how I feel, only what I do. Maybe there’s a lust demon, and I’m possessed. I mean, the day I lose interest in sex is the day I want to die. So I guess I am what I’ve been labeled.

My only choice is to live with it until I wake up in hell. 

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8 Responses to Guilt

  1. Actually, that just seems like honest, normal, male appetites. Society and women try very hard to shame men for that; however, that drive is what has driven all of civilization’s developments.

    • alaskan454's avatar alaskan454 says:

      Well, in my case, the shaming has worked, at least somewhat. Why is sex something to be ashamed of? I’m not advocating indiscriminate promiscuity, but it seems as though it’s seen as dirty and shameful, regardless of the circumstances. What is wrong with people?!?

      • Sex is something to be ashamed of because the sexual revolution was a failure. Therefore, if the left and feminism doesn’t like something, it must be shamed, controlled, and those who do like/enjoy it are awful people, somehow.

        They have the same reaction to gun owners.

      • alaskan454's avatar alaskan454 says:

        As much as I despise feminism, I don’t think we can lay this at their feet. At least not completely. More than one religious organization defines it as the original sin. Hell, I learned what masturbation (not technically sex, but close enough) was from my pastor who was admonishing me as to its evils, convinced that I was doing it. One of many reasons why I eschew organized religion, but that’s another subject altogether.

  2. To quote one of the books I have finished recently (it was kind ofna crappy book overall but this line was a gem, in my opinion): “Sex is… sex is… SEX. It’s like eating and sleeping , it’s what makes life worth all the crap you have to go through. Hell, it’s what makes life possible.” Granted minus the full context of the storyline it lacks some of it’s importance, but even so the point is still made.

  3. Odysseus's avatar Odysseus says:

    Grumpy,

    I doubt you would be happy in the “herbivore movement”(look up that sad lot) or the “women are all feminist bitches, so never go for anything beyond sexual flings types.” I also highly doubt that you’ll be in for the eternal flambe, because you have a normal sex drive. I sounds like your most recent partners might have more to concern themselves in that department if they pulled the libido bait and switch to get financial gain.

    I don’t quite know what to advise because I fully feel like I’ve used several lifetimes worth of luck to meet HH. The best I can say is don’t let the bitches put you off looking for the one in more than a million perfect life partner, because she will be worth it.

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